I think i think too much;)

Quite a lot to say and not NEARLY enough time to say it(: Ha.

I've decided (technically i decided awhile ago..So i'm just kinda restating!) But, i have FANTASTIC friends(: I adore them. I used to be so unhappy about all the friends i seemed to have lost... I would think about it constantly. Wondering what happened.
But now, i'm okay. I'm happy where i am. I love my friends and i wouldn't trade them for the world. Sure, i miss my old friends, quite a bit. And it still makes me sad to think about what went wrong. But i'm okay with it now, for some reason.
I've met some awesome people and i'm sooo glad. I don't know where i would be without them. I'm so glad that we are nice to each other (most of the time) ;) I seriously do love them.

Recently, i've felt a lot like an outsider. Like i'm trying to find the place i fit in. And i realized, i like it sometimes. I don't have to get involved in high school crap. I can do what i want, when i want to, and no one cares! I can say whats on my mind, cause no one understands. I used to get so frustrated feeling like no one really sincerely cared and now that i noticed that thats okay, i've begun to like it. When someone really does care (not in the like, motherly fatherly caring sort of way. As in the caring about your image kind of judging kind of way...If that makes any sense...) , it can be sort of...stressful. You always feel pressured to please them; their wants, their feelings, etc. You never really get to be true to you. And yes, it is good to try to make other people happy and to serve, but you've got to find the balance of time for you and time for others. If you are ALWAYS trying to please everyone else, you will lose who you really are. I've learned that the hard way. And sometimes that means you have to let things go. And its hard, but once you realize who you are, its easier to help others out. I know this probably makes no sense...And i could ramble on about this forever, but i'll stop now. Cause i have more to ramble about;)

13 DAYS Till the BATC will be stealing me away for the summer. Yes, the countdown has begun! And to be honest, i don't really know how i feel about it! I'm soo excited to live up there this summer and to be with my family and to learn about things i love but i'm worried i'll be homesick, that i won't make friends, and that i will be terribly lonely. I have all these "What if's" floating around in my head, and it scares me to deeaath. I've been running around like crazy trying to make sure that EVERYTHING is ready. And its seriously stressing me out! BUT all in all, i'm excited. I know it will be a fabulous experience for me and i'm anxious to get going!

GUESS WHO GETS GETS HER LICENSE TOMORROW? This girl right here. Yep, you could say i'm excited(: I've only waited, what, 5 months. I'M DYING! So ready to be able to drive on my own. The DMV is calling my nameeee(: Hahaha. Independence, here i come!

All right, one last topic, then i'm done...For now;)
I've been thinking a lot about "impulse" You know, things you say or do..or don't do out of impulse. I personally hate impulse. I think the only thing its good for is to push the break in you car when you're about to wreck. Other than that, it's stupid. We hurt feelings on an impulse, we wreck relationships on a impulse, we make mistakes on an impulse, we disobey on an impulse. Most of the things we do are out of impulse and i'm not so sure i like it.I think that EVERYONE, mostly myself, should sit back and think before we act on an impulse, because most of the time, it gets us into serious trouble.

Well, That is all i have, i know you are probably all dying from too many words. Sorry about that. I like to write...so?(:
-Bridgette